How is my learning capacity when I am mind wandering?

Contribution from Isabel Hernández Negrin in Las Palmas de Gran Canaria, Spain.

I think it’s a good idea to present the personal anecdotes of a few people after five work sessions with the corresponding daily practice.

• A childlike attitude has been awoken in me, one of curiosity towards what is, which has makes it so that I need to search less for other situations that are more exotic and distinct from that which daily life offers me.

• Fundamentally, I think that I’m more conscious of my “emotional illiteracy,” but not in a way that discourages me or deters me, but rather the opposite. This course has become a very experiential challenge, which excites me very much.

• I live more consciously, more attentive to what happens to me, even if only to a small degree. That means I can also be more attuned to others.

• I try not to identify with what I think or feel, absolutely. That makes me freer. I’m more conscious of the present moment, it’s that simple. It has made me stop my mind on many occasions and realize that I wasn’t living the moment, but rather ruminating on the past and worrying myself about the future.

• The observation of emotions themselves is interesting and necessary. Seeing them as a passing process, as something that happens to us but does not last eternally, as not what we are. The other thing that I would note is the fact that not judging ourselves and not judging, we have the tendency to interpret what others do, say, or suggest, and immediately give it an explanation. Now I’ve given that up and I’m freer.
All of these comments reflect, in part, the change between allowing oneself to be swept away by emotions, judgements, and automatic thoughts, and living with full attention on what one is really living.