What happens to me when I do not live consciously that I live?
Contributed by Isabel Hernández Negrin from Las Palmas de Gran Canaria,
If I am not aware of my life, my reactions, my emotions and my thoughts, who holds the reins of my life? When you do not know how to ride a horse and you mount on one, who determines the way?
The horse. And even if you want to go to the right, he will go where he is interested in going.
Let’s say we live mounted on a horse that we do not know how to handle.
That horse lives to survive: to eat, to move around the place he considers safer, to avoid what he fears, to reproduce, to do whatever is fair for survival. We are always mounted on that horse and as we do not learn to handle the horse, in the end, we believe that we are the horse and we adapt to that. So that it’s him, our most basic instinct for survival, who holds the reins of our lives. And for the survival, we have a friend: fear. It is this that gives you the signals to move away or to move closer to what is convenient for you, even if you do not realize it and believe that it is you who decides. Your horse and your fear are the ones who decide.
If you let your horse and your fear manage your life, you will be surrounded by your fears, worries, thoughts that anticipate dangers, emotions of rage, sadness, anxiety, defensive attitudes, etc. and miss out on the wonderful things that you find on your way. We only fight to survive and not to live everything that surrounds us with the open eyes. With this way of living, we pick up only the crumbs of satisfaction, because the fears give us very little space to live life to the fullest. We must always be on the lookout for whatever comes our way.
To take charge of the reins of our own life, it is necessary to first become aware, to be conscious through our own observation of the living, that we are above the horse and the fear. And that’s when we will be able to learn to ride and the horse will go wherever we want it to go.
Becoming aware is possible. We are ready for it. It is only a matter of observing ourselves, observing the horse, and moving forward with the reins in our hands, towards a life with our own direction.